This blog is written in the past tense for a reason - it's about the things that happened to me, not the stuff I'm going through. Writing it about the here-and-now is too personal, too whiny - for me, at least. But the Great Wide Internet deserves a little information now and again.
Not unexpectedly, the immanent Return to College Land has brought its own wave of anxiety into my nice, fairly settled life. Unexpectedly, I learned something new: a year of therapy has done wonders for my ability to deal with mild, moderate, and fairly bad anxiety.
My ability to deal with very extreme anxiety is still pretty shitty.
The short and long of it is that I spent two days in the hospital due to extreme anxiety and suicidal thinking; I am now on a new regiment of drugs that will (hopefully) help me control my anxiety to an extent that I will return to school in a mildly-sane state.
In essence, Life's a Bitch and Then You Die.
But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!
When you get to college, I think you will find that there is so much love waiting for you there.
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